sometimes, it's just so irritating to think about the rows one has had before.. others just laugh it off, and concede it as part of the past.. in my case, i really don't know how i treat past rows.. maybe because i easily forget those kind of things though they invade my brain everytime i'm mad and i move on so fast.. maybe that's a talent.c= but what's my point in writing these kind of things? nothing, really.. just randomizing several thoughts.. after all, the purple pyrolyptic princess knows how to think—don't give any reason for yourself to give a damn about that..

professionally speaking, i don't mind personal arguments over matters that include anything that will ace my grades.. yes, MY GRADES MATTER even if it doesn't show because i'm being lazy most of the time.. That's another talent for me.. Honestly, i don't take any time for studying, sleeping matters more.. Surprisingly, my said talent never fails me.. But i came to realize things, what i am is my most impeccable destruction.. My laziness will kill me someday and i know that.. So what do these things have to do with several past rows?.. I don't know.. I really don't.. it's just that my laziness of reacting over things causes mere sparks that others grow to sudden ferocious flames.. and i don't see the reason why i have to be wrong everytime i put out the fire.. i also don't know why i should receive such exaggerated and frantic reactions when all i ever did was to clear myself at last for the years i have been wrong and silent.. feeble-mindedness? yes, perfectly true..

i'm not alone, though.. i never was.. might be, if i don't have a lot of tasks to do.. i won't be surprised if i receive another exaggerated reaction/s on this post.. thank God, i have been blessed with an understanding mind.. and to all of you, God Bless.. May God clear your minds soon..

SARCASM..
that's one of the services i offer.c=

hair... how would one say if he/she has beautiful hair? if it shines jet black? if it doesn't break easily? if split-ends are nowhere to be found? if it feels soft and smooth? different types of hair has certain degrees of being beautiful.. the above characteristics speak for themselves generally.. one common factor of hair product commercials are ladies with long hair, be it curled or perfectly straight.. but what does it take to have jaw-dropping, greatly astounding and gorgeous hair? bummer.. i even don't know things associating those kind of matters for myself.. but i consider my hair beautiful.. long before my grandmother died.. i used to have that shiny and soft jet black hair.. people often asked me to go for hair modelling auditions.. but when my granny died, my mother was so depressed that she called our hairstylist and asked him... errr.. her.. well, to style the both of us.. the finish? i got the flaming red hair of the weasleys and jean grey a.k.a phoenix.. i thought it's good, but i suddenly reverted everything when my hair grew split-ends.. and, i got tired of managing it.. the good news is, i still have the shiny jet black hair.. it's just that it became dry.. and i mean REALLY dry.. a nightmare.(o_O') i miss my long hair.. and my prince's, too..

i just realized something.. this is the only good picture me and my closest buddy in school ever had.. hah! perfect enough to be treasured..

I NEED A NEW VIDEO CARD.. SH*T.. I WANT TO PLAY GAMES BADLY.. and Pangasinan.. Wait for me, i'll be there in a few hours.. Q(",Q)

Smile.
It makes a world of differences.
Cry.
Holding those emotions in is bad for you.
Kiss.
Kisses are the most wonderful things in the world.
Laugh.
What's the point in hiding happiness?
Frown.
Why not let them know you're unhappy?
Apologize.
You don't wanna lose friends.
Hug.
There's no better feeling being wrapped up close to someone you love.
Live.




'Coz life is everything.
—anonymous.C=

I fell in love twice.. First was with you... Second was the person you became when you're already mine..
—Joey to Dawson, Dawson's Creek

Life is short.. So break the rules.. Forgive quickly.. Believe slowly.. Love truly.. Laugh uncontrollably.. and never regret anything that made you smile..
—anonymous

Know what's weird? Day by day nothing seems to change, but pretty soon, everything is different. You just go about your business and one day you realize you're not the same person you used to be. People change whether they decide to or not.
—Calvin to Hobbes

It's wiser not to expect but to hope—for in expecting, we ask for disappointments while in hoping, we invite surprises.
—anonymous

Never underestimate your potential and never be ashamed of what you are.. Do your best especially when people expect you to do less.. It's because the greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you can't do..
—anonymous

an interview with God..
man: "What surprises You most about humankind?"
God: "That they got bored with childhood, they rush to grow up, and then long to be chiLdren again. That they lose their health to make money and then lose their money to restore their health. That by thinking anxiousLy about the future, they forget the present, such that they live in neither the present nor the future. That they live as if they will never die and die as though they have never lived."

Only a dead fish swims with the current.
—ATF

Our prime purpose in life is to help others. And if you can't help them, at least don't hurt them..
—Dalai Lama

You can always trust a dishonest man to be dishonest. It is the honest man you should not trust for you'll never know when he would be dishonest
—Captain Jack Sparrow, Pirates of the Caribbean

Often we stand at life's crossroads and view what we think is the END. But God has a much bigger vision & He tells us, "Relax my child, it's only a BEND."
—anonymous

Everyone can love a rose but only a great heart can include its thorns.
—anonymous

To love is a duty.
To be loved is a gift.
To love someone who loves you is an achievement.
To be loved by someone you love is LIFE.
—anonymous

You're everything i wanted and more...
—Thomas Andrew Alejandria [friendster shoutout]

The worst feeling isn't being lonely. It's knowing you'll never be remembered by the person you'll never forget.
—Alvin Louie Estella [text message]

Paano ba namamatay ang isang tao?
..kapaG nagkakasakit siya?
..kapag tumatanda na siya ng sobra?
..kapaG naLason siYa ng kUng ano?
..HiNdi..
NamamaTay anG iSang taO kaPag naLimOt na siYa nG mGa naGmamaHaL sa kanYa at hinDi na siYa muLing maaLaLa pa..
—Lufi of One Piece

hmmm.. let's see.. my academic review..

awtz.. i flunked my last exam in Physics.. waaahh.='c an absolute zero.. it's because i haven't got any sleep the night before the exam because of our defective machine problem.. i did the documentation and my brain got totally drained.. so, the result, I HAVEN'T ANSWERED ANY OF THE THREE ITEMS.. waahh.='c i really wish professor de leon would pass me.. after all, i've got 85 additional points, and homeworks with perfect scores.. all i have to do is to ace the final exam.. yeah, i really should..

next awe is mechanics.. waaah.='c i really felt bad about the last exam.. and i lacked one homework.. looks like i got a hang-over by my defense blues.. my brain seemed to malfunction after that sleepless night.. and it's killing me.. i really have to do that project, alright.. i've decided to max that project up to give a reason to my professor to pass me..

i haven't got any problem with my first major subject now.. thanks to the PR skills kuya ace had taught me, i'll be passing.. weeee,, and the defense, i/we aced it.. cool.. a big thanks to fritzie, by the way.. if it weren't for her GC attitude, our group won't be able to make it.. and C++.. i couldn't practice at home because i don't have that daft of a software.. and now that i have it, HaH! i'm learning! weheheheh.. i ran a simple program with the usual output of "Hello World!".. at first, it wouldn't run, and i got pissed off.. i told myself, "hey, you're hopeless in Borland C++.. feed yourself in Visual Basic 6.0 instead.." nyahahaha.. but when i halted to a last try, to my surprise, IT RAN! THE SIMPLE STUPID PROGRAM RAN!! hahaha.Ü i promise myself to excel in all my programming subjects, from now on.. weeeeeee..

now, my peer review..

ok.. that's it.. I REALLY NEED A BREAK.. a break from you, guys.. you're all giving me a headache.. i already got fed up by your __________..

haaaay.. super miss ko na ang HS darlings ko.. ang buong bottomless.. gusto ko na silang makita.. gusto ko na silang makasama.. at makaharutan uli.. makapagtribute nga..

Lyn Loraine Teaño - ang hot chick.. bitchy.. JOKE! ang may pinakamaraming kwento.. kahit sex layp niyan, ikukuwento pa.. ang pinaka-sexy.. at higit sa lahat, patatawanin ka pag nalulungkot ka.. strong personality, at rest assured kang ipagtatanggol ka..


Louise Myjel Guevarra - nakow.. kilala na nga talaga ako netong taong to.. alam ang mga sikreto ko, kahit hindi ko sinasabi.. ang nakakaramdam ng aking mayhems.. marunong dumamay.. ang assassin.. magaling magsulat, >toink.. siyempre, journalist 'yan..<>

Jane Ericka de los Reyes - ang port.. huh? anu 'yun? wehehehe.. ang umaangkin sa 'ken ng sobra-sobra as a friend.. saksakan ng pagkaselosa.. at loyal din.. dapat na sinasamba pagdating sa badminton.. one good listener..


Richelle Canoza - ang inaamag kong kaibigan.. sobrang tagal na, since grade 5.. soooper sporty.. energetic.. hinahanap pa rin si mr. right.. dakilang dumadamay din..


Miki Jamal Villarama - oopsie.. lovelife blues.. yun ang madalas namin pagkuwentuhan.. and super miss ko na itong taong 'to.. cute din dimples neto.. at maganda din.. lahat naman kami maganda eh.. masarap ka-txt, kasi hindi ka tatantanan.. naman, nasira pa kasi celfone ko.=(


Osonnie Kay Marcos - ang prinsesa ng tropa.. prinsesa sa kagandahan.. nagpauso ng annual jabongga palooza.. kakaiba bumanat.. may british accent.. at full force din sa pagdamay.. gosh, namiss tuloy kita, ossie..


Karen Nepomuceno - lukaret.. pero matalino.. madami ding kwento.. magaling makibagay sa lalake, pano kasi tibo.. joke.. isa pa ring pa-girl 'yan eh.. strong-willed pero mapapaiyak ng tru Lab niya..


Eunice Lozada - isa pa ring mataray.. nawawala ang ilong.. NYAKZ, joke lang yun dude.. pa-demure pag nagbabayad sa jeep.. bungisngis din.. magandang takbuhan.. pwede ring utangan.. nyahahaha..


Sheena dela Cruz - ang pinaka—soft-spoken pero pinakamalutong din magmura.. small but terrible.. kakaiba din bumanat.. da best sa pakikinig.. beware, nangdadakot ng b*obs..


Ma. Edhie Laine Sapnu - si neneng biba.. ang babaeng simula nung bday niya nung 2006 eh nowhere to be found na.. masarap kausap sa open forum, kasi tinatanggap ang mga pagkakamali niya.. isa sa mga pinakamataray, pero grabe umiyak pag na-touch.. nagkukuwento at kinukuwentuhan din.. kakaiba bumanat..


Erlan Alvarez - a.k.a Papa E.. masarap makipagtawanan.. masarap kakuwentuhan.. makulit.. harot.. at higit sa lahat, alam kung pano magpakilig.. aaaawwww..


Jose Mari Escalambre - a.k.a. Papa Jo.. soooper cutie.. kahit badaf, hinahabol yan.. hindi namin carry ang spanish blood niya.. da best actor in town.. masarap din kakuwentuhan..

haay.. nakita ko na ang prinsipe ko umiyak nung nagbonding kaming muli sa liwasang boni.. at nagalit na rin siya sa 'ken.c= yihee.. wala lang, pagod na kasi ako sa lahat kaya nagbreak-down na ako sa harap niya.. ayun, nakita ko din siyang umiiyak.. inay, lalo akong naiyak nun.. umiyak na ang lahat ng tao sa mundo, huwag lang ang prinsipe ko.. hehe.(= eh baket naman siya nagalit?.. sinabi ko kasing magssuicide ako pag iniwan niya ako eh..

"ano ka ba naman!? ayokong mangyari yun, pero pag nangyari yun huwag mo namang gawin yun!"

haha.(= he cares.. and he's starting to get mad.. mad at whom? yeah, who else.. but sorry, like the ludicrous song, "Nobody wanna see us together, but it don't matter, no.. 'Coz i got you.."
but lucky you, i'm asking him the favor of not getting mad at you.. yeah, my prince also admitted that he's starting to get jealous of TNB.. nyahahahahah.c= but he couldn't give a damn about it because he knows what i've gone through just to work there.. he said he wants to spend more time with me, but i couldn't.. nyahahaha.c= i love you, hunny.. you're everything i wanted and more..

"for years and years, i had nothing and still have most of it left.." —TNB logbook

"don't disturb me.. i'm trying to live happily ever after.." —TNB logbook again

Q(",Q)


professor de leon is a really good professor.. besides professor novida, he made me learn physics easily when everybody's perception of the course is one difficult thingumabob.. professor escamilla was also one good instructor, but all my subjects under her are laboratory classes.. what do you expect? yeah, i learn.. it's just that the things i learn don't sink in my brain.. but professor de leon—once he starts talking, even if i'm not in the mood, i can't help but listen.c=

and angst lives for me.. *some text missing*..

para sa 'yo, isang malaking

OK... gets??

my sincerest gratitude to Alvin for always being there for me.. for being the one who believes that a one-sided situation is not enough right from the start.. i'm thankful for the trust.. and that backstabbing issue before, i'm over that.. true, i got furious about those thingies, but on second thought, it's already over.. what's the use of crying over spilled milk? and you already told me you're sorry, right? i believe the changes you made for yourself.. and i'm glad about that.. and guess what?.. i'd be here for you, too.. always.. like no one ever did.. hell to others.. we'll make this.. so smile.. you got me..

and to my prince, haHa.Ü you and your blog never fail to make me smile.. thanks for the strength you're giving me not to mention also the voltage rundowns on my spine.. i'm making it all because of you, though sometimes you're not helping you don't feel the way i'm feeling but at least you're trying to.. and being my strength—that's more than enough.. oh well, that's love..

to abs, dude!! thanks for listening.. hehehe.Ü that sure helped.. i'm such an implosive person, and spilling out really matters to me.. i'm already owing you a lot of things—from listening to me about awes on my prince, up to this time.. i'll repay you in time.. and yeah, your blog needs updating.=p

to j-mie, you're really an angel.. thankz for listening.. need i say more?